The MentaList

Rango
Kung Fu Panda 2
The Green Mile
The Godfather
The Green Lantern
Poultrygeist 
Brazil
I Love You Man
The Hobbit
Superman: Man of Steel
Big Lebowski
Lars and the Real Girl
The Kids are Alright
Bright Young Things
It
Abe Lincoln, Vampire Hunter

• To make someone’s day.
• To be the warm, yellow light that pours over everyone I love.
• To have a job.
• To be confident.
• To have friends. Real friends.
• To learn to knit.
• To travel out of the country. 
• To learn the French language.
• To have a place to call my own.
• To be forgiven.
• To change the past.
• To see the future.
• To be free of my illnesses.
• To be able to connect with people, rather than hide from them.
• To feel comfortable with people, rather than hide from them.
• To love, and be loved. 
• Not to fear.
• Not to let other’s surplus of motivation and ambition get me down.
• Not to be so concerned.
• Not to worry.
• To feel safe.

• I know your name.
• I know your face. 
• I kept you close.
  Just in case. 
• I love your voice.
• I love your hair.
• I love your lashes.
  I know they’re there.
• I felt your heart
• and pock-marked skin.
• I felt a wall.
  It wasn’t thin.
• I was brave
• and somewhat strong.
• We didn’t share.
  So I wrote songs.
• I painted you.
• I painted me.
• I let you in.
  Too soon, it seems.
• I hate your name.
• I hate your face.
• Those both were lies.
  But I need space. 

To turn my headlights on
To turn my headlights off
To make appointments
Appointments
To call people back
To check voicemail
To eat
To start downloads
To finish laundry after I’ve started it
That I’m cooking
To breathe
To be aware of what I say and who I’m saying it to
Simple mathematics
To mail things out
To stop daydreaming
To write or email people back
That I’m pretending
What I was just about to do
Where I put my chapstick
Why I’m at the store
The plans I’ve made 
That my dreams aren’t real
That I creep people out
That I have the appearance of a 15 year-old
That people can’t read my writing
That people aren’t nice. 
Names 

The river
Grandma Aya
Halloween
Flowers
Nicole’s hair (in a totally not creepy way)
Hot pockets
Dad’s garden
The old movie store in Etna
Brother baking at home when I’m not sick
Pantene
Grandpa
X-mas trees
New shoes
Camping
The post office
Lemon
Aussie shampoo and conditioner
Yerba Mate
Grandma Aya’s house
Clean laundry
Lavender
Patchouli
Roses
Dad’s house
Dad’s laundry
Spearmint plant
Babies